A Quick Update

Last call for Oklahoma shirt! And a few thoughts on carrying our history with us into our futures.

First of all, this is the final call for pre-ordering t-shirts! Get yours here!!

I’ve been full. So full with life, with carrying the weight of of obligations, with caretaking, etc. I find it completely pointless to attempt too much right now. I’m not setting high goals or making much in the way of new work. I know that I am pretty close to maxed out and I’m not asking too much of myself. I’m in Germany right now, with my mom. So many of my dear and caring friends have wished me a happy vacation, but this is really nothing that I can compare to a vacation. This is a trip to Germany with my mom that, as so many years before, we head to the home of our friends, but it is the first time that they are no longer living.

Maybe we don’t even know how much weight we are carrying until, by one small thing at a time (one story told over dinner, one bread box on a counter from another time, one old sweater, turning down a road and seeing a long forgotten piece of a memory) these reunions with family, these humanizing stories are healing. I am going through a mending. All the stitches don’t hold, some unravel here and there again, but my patchwork life maintains its integrity after all, even if I didn’t always believe it.

And with every healing day I feel more and more open again, I’m seeing more beauty, more hope, I can see that I will continue and create. New ideas will come. It will be ok.

New ideas and, therefore, new work will come. It has to.

I’m just realizing I didn’t know how completely stuffed full I was until I turned around to assess it. This is the time for pause and then I’ll hit play again later.

Yours Occasionally,

Roshni